Looking back now the day I have in mind was very bittersweet.
A dear friend to me, someone is grown up with and called my older brother, passed away from sickness. Tanner Raboin.
His mother was my babysitter for most of my life and practically raised me. They’d become my second family. Tanner was always sick, he had a weak immune system. I never could remember the name of his disease. But besides the frequent trips the the doctors/hospital/ER, he lead a pretty normal life. Normal as in you wouldn’t be able to tell something was wrong with him if you looked right at him.
Toward the end of his life he had gotten very sick with pneumonia. Because of his disease it effected him twice as badly as it should have. He was going to be sent to Maryland where there was a hospital that specialized in his disease. Before he left I was suppose to hang out with him. Before I knew it he was already flying out. I remember telling him we’d have a special day as soon as he came back & was all better, just the two of us…
Months passed & nothing got better. I put the situation aside in my head and didn’t pay much attention to what might happen to him. Finally the doctors told his parents there was nothin left they could do and they might as well take him home to be with the ones he loves. I knew I had to visit him asap.
The day he came back I was At lunch when a mutual friend of ours walked up to me and showed me a text from his mom. “tanner has passed away.” my heart sank and my stomach lurched forward. I panicked & as tears flooded my eyes a took about five steps away from everyone and fell to the floor crying. I couldn’t help but think, “not tanner, not yet, I haven’t kept my promise, I haven’t seen him yet, its not fair I haven said goodbye.” I was in total shock.
Seeing his parents later that day only made it so much harder. They were there for me when my dad passed away & the first thing his dad said when I hugged him was ” I’m so sorry you have to go through this again.” that’s when my heart broke. How could he be thinking about me and my feelings right now when it’s HIS SON who’s passed away? The love his parents had made it so much harder to watch them go through something so tragic. There only son gone an yet they’re still honking of others.
Now I say this was bittersweet but let me tell you why. With tanners passing it meant he was no longer suffering. No more pain no more shots or blood tests or doctors or hospitals or anything. He’s finally at total peace and I couldn’t be happier for him. I pray for his parents everyday, but thank God that tanner is finally with him in the kingdom of heaven. Rip tanner
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At first I really couldn’t pick one day to call the best day out of all of 2011, but I think I have it now.
I went on a retreat over summer called Steubenville with some really magnificent people. The best day of my 2011 has to be the day we returned from that wonderful weekend. I’d never cried tears of joy before that day, and I don’t mean a single tear down my cheek crying, I mean pure happiness pouring like waterfalls from my eyes !
I was so happy to have grown such a strong bond with everyone on that trip but most of all I was over joyed that I had grown so much closer to my faith and to God. It was then that I knew I’d fiend for God for the rest of my life, for the rest of eternity. I had fallen in love with my faith and I was ready to live by his word. I struggle everyday to be the daughter of Christ I wish to be and I fail him everyday, but I’m trying. I’ll never forget that day we arrived back into chino hills, back to reality, where I’d be able to put my faith to work.
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It's so coincidental how I'm in the same position Cameron was and how you're in the same position the girl is. I probably think my friendship with her doesn't mean shit to her. I don't flirt with her because I actually want to be noble. As in being chivalrous, instead of flirting 24/7 and acting like a fucking flirting 24/7 faggot. I just hope that one day, I'll have a chance I guess. I'm that type of person who has more feelings than the other... damn man, screw my hopeless romantic mentality.
no, I think thats really wonderful that you have that mentality :) With the way our generation is girls just expect something different; they aren’t use to that I guess. A lot of girls say thats what they want in a guy, but won’t even know what it is when it hits them. Just make it known that you’re there for her for anything and everything (if you are) and then really the rest is up to her !
Anon:She makes me happy, like that real kind of happiness, not that fake bull I give to everyone. That warm fuzzy feeling I get inside, sadly she doesn't get the same way I guess. Every time I talk to her, I get nervous and I get dizzy, then I speak so low and shyly then I get all embarrassed and shit. I don't know, she's just so amazingly complex. She's one of the best things that has happened to my life and she impacted so deeply, enough to make me to just do anything for her. ah... sometimes I just wanna say,"fuck it, she's not even worth my time and I do for her." but then couples like you and you boyfriend give me hope. I still wanan say fuck it, but that's because I haven't seen her in awhile... Hahaha, sorry for kinda venting.. That just hit the heart.
Me:Don't be sorry! Now, I'm not gonna get all "happily ever after" on you because I don't know much about the both of you and your situation. But It seems like she means a lot to you. You said she greatly impacted your life & is the best thing that ever happened to you. To me that sounds like someone worth waiting for & worth fighting for. There was a time when I never even thought about giving Cameron the time or day. He wasn't the flirty type, didn't exactly show me he had feelings for me and it was really hard for me to tell if he was really interested in me. we went through a whole hell of a lot before we got together, but now I couldn't be happier. I'm not saying you and the girl you like will miraculously get together and end up like me and Cam, But there is a definite chance that it could happen. Cam told me there was a time he almost gave up. & if he had, we wouldn't be where we are today. I;m just saying anything can happen. & if you care for her as much as you say you do then wait for her, what's the rush ? who knows what might happen ! But that's just me... sorry for such a long reply... haha
Your post about your boyfriend really hit the heart, literally. That's probably the most relevant post I have ever faced, aside the fact that the girl I like aren't even together and she's talking to some other nigga. But I don't know why, your post just gave me hope that one day her and I would be together, possibly. Hah, I really doubt it, but I'm waiting, I guess. Hopefully I won't be waiting for nothing. But thank you a lot, for hope.
oh my goodness this is the greatest thing ! I am so happy I could give you hope :) Honestly, Before me and Cam got together I really did put him through HELL ! I was blind to what was right in front of me and that may be the case with the girl you like. If you truly care about her & her happiness then stay by her side. The saying “Nice guys finish last” isn’t true. If you’re meant to be with her she’ll realize what she’s missing out on with you. If she never does then that just means there is someone else out there who will truly appreciate you. :)
Where do I even begin? We’ve been together for ten months now. It’ll be 11 on jan. 6 & our 1 year Feb. 6 <3 He’s the first guy to ever stay with me for so long, & I don’t mean just the ten months that we’ve been together.
He was my Best Friend since freshmen year & it was a relationship bred from hate haha. When I first met him I thought he was cocky, the “Too cool for school” type. Of course I was wrong, and it took a little while for me to realize that, but regardless of that he stood by me the entire way.
He stood by and watched patiently through out our freshman & most of sophomore year while I had “relationships” and flings with other boys. There came a time when he confessed he really liked me and I brushed it off as if it meant nothing because I didn’t know what to do. As cheesy as it sounds, at the time I couldn’t be more confused about my feelings, and the possibility of being in a relationship with him. Honestly I couldn’t be more confused at the fact that he even liked me, because I sure as hell couldn’t tell. & In fact I did put him through hell. & I’m pretty sure there was a point where I broke his heart…
Even after that, he was still there for me through everything & for everything. He stood by my side even after I walked away from his. That’s what made me realize he had more than just a crush on me & he wasn’t all about just getting with me. He really cared about me, loved me, and was willing to put my happiness before his. That’s when I realized how perfect he really was. We went to winter formal together that february and the rest is history !
He’s become such an important part of my life and has taught me so much. I couldn’t be more grateful to be able to call him mine <3 he’s there for me in a way no else is and I wouldn’t have it any other way. xoxo
Them:Aren't you scared about what people think of you and your outspoken faith?
Me:Yes. I've cared so much about what others have thought about me that I held back being me. To tell you the truth, I got sick of it over the past years. People are going to look at you different whether you're wearing those animal beanies or practicing your faith. They're going to judge even if you love. That's how it is.So what's the point of worrying and fearing others? I think it's about being comfortable in my own and really being who am I. I struggle with openly practicing faith on the daily, but I'm working on it.