You know those times when you hear the cutest, sweetest love song, or see a couple out in public or watch a movie about romance? Well I’m not sure which is worse, going thorugh all those events and having someone unobtainable in mind, or having no one in mind at all.. Either way its just a lonely, miserable expercience !
Thinking about it, there was a time when I still had feelings for this boy. I was pretty sure he had 100% moved on from me. Everytime I heard a love song come on the radio or my IPod my thoughts would imediately turn to him and my heart would sink knowing that what we had was entirely gone. Everytime I saw a couple holding hands in public I’d think of him, and every romance movie I saw, every romance novel I read reminded me of him. It was honestly the most dreadful thing ever. Being reminded of the one person who gives you those butterflies and remembering all posibilities of ever being with him were gone.. Eventually time went on and I did get over him.
What I now realize is that with no special someone in mind, no face to match with the lovey-dovey-ness of everything it might even be a bit more dreadful and lonely. I no longer have any of those “special feelings” for anyone and the feeling is quite lonely. When I hear a love song theres no one who comes to mind. When I see a couple or a romance movie there is absolutely no one I think of besides the fact that I have no one.
I honestly don ‘t know which is worse.. having that someone in mind but knowing there cant be anything there; or having no one at all..
how people take a look at me and think I can’t defend myself. I have this rep as a really nice person, and don’t get me wrong, I try my best to be that. My parents raised me that way. But the thing is, as soon as people catch the drift that I’m “nice” they automatically assume I’m some kind of push over. That is what honestly pisses me off. I’m a patient person, that doesn’t mean I don’t have a back bone. Give me a little more credit then that. Get in my face, then we’ll see what happens.
People assume that because I am this goodie-two-shoes I don’t have the same desires and thoughts as everyone else in this world. I think about everything any other person would think about. I cuss daily, I have my little tantrums every now and then, I can lash out if I really need to, I can be mean and bitchy if the time calls for it, sometimes I just want to have a good time and party and go crazy! is it a crime for me to be that way every so often?
I’m a regular human being, just like everyone out there. So what if I have my own guidelines and boundaries. Who’s to say I’m glued to that life style? The truth is; nobody truly knows anyone in this world. You’re always going to be finding out new things about every single person around you. So nothing should ever really come off as a surprise when you hear about whatever juicy gossip is going around. Because the only reason its surprising news is because you don’t even know that person. Go ahead and make those daily judgments, cause you really have no idea.
Thanks for the follow doll! J.w. whats the lesson learned about. Alicia keys?
Btw I'm Cait don't be a Stranger.
no problem! and actually, lesson learned is from the Alicia Keys song but its also a reference to the personal things I sometimes post, as to say the I’ve learned from the experiences I’ve gone through. :)
Letter 1 — Your Best Friend Letter 2 — Your Crush Letter 3 — Your parents Letter 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative) Letter 5 — Your dreams Letter 6 — A stranger Letter 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush Letter 8 — Your favorite internet friend Letter 9 — Someone you wish you could meet Letter 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to Letter 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to Letter 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain Letter 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you Letter 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from Letter 15 — The person you miss the most Letter 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country Letter 17 — Someone from your childhood Letter 18 — The person that you wish you could be Letter 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad Letter 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest Letter 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression Letter 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to Letter 23 — The last person you kissed Letter 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory Letter 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times Letter 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to Letter 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day Letter 28 — Someone that changed your life Letter 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
This song is so beautiful. Fell in love with this song after So You Think You Can Dance. :) “So I put my arms around you, around you. And I hope that I will do no wrong. My eyes are on you, they’re on you. And I hope that you won’t hurt me.”