I am a fucking idiot. I swear I looked at the schedule for work like 50 kajillion times this past week to make sure I knew exactly when I’d be working. HOW IS IT that I saw my two shifts, monday & wednesday, and managed to miss THAT I HAD A 7:45 - 1:00pm SHIFT TODAY !? LIKE WTF?!
I wake up and my shift lead calls me asking where I am, well of course I’m in fucking Chino Hills, No I don’t want to come in because I just woke up & now I need to look somewhat decent which will make me later, drive to campus, find parking, which will again make me later, and then walk to the store and stand at the register feeling so guilty the whole rest of my shift to the point of nausea. I am a fucking idiot.
I swear I’m gonna be on the lay off list in 2/3 weeks. My shift lead was being extremely nice on the phone saying that she could use one of my “sick days” to get me out of it. I only used ONE other sick day My first semester and she said the next time I use one more then I get written up, but I get one free write up. Even as good as all that sounds as far as working out and stuff I still feel like shit. Even if they aren’t writing me up its still something they’re gonna keep in mind. ESPECIALLY since it’s back to school week and it is busy as fuck at the store. I mean, Thank goodness it’s Friday, so it’ll be the slowest day but I mean, holy shit I am fucked.
Every semester they hire on new people and lay off the people that basically seem useless to them. As much as the manager loves me, & I know he days because I’m one of the most upbeat and outgoing people there (which is good customer service), I can’t help but feel that I basically deserve to be laid off. FFUUUUUCCKKKKKKK.
The schedule sheet that gets e-mailed every two weeks is the most fucking ridiculous thing to read, especially when they’re over staffing for back to school. There are probably over 100 cashiers on this giant excel spread sheet and it just looks like a highlighter threw up on this giant grid of names and times. & I do my best every week to look at that shit thoroughly over & over & over & still manage to fuck it up.